susan visted from saturday until today.
we did a lot in this small town.
we came to a huge realization, and that is
that each of our initials are right next to each other in the alphabet.
in correct order too.
humoring!
i'll be leaving on wednesday to again be with susan, but in rochester.

home has equaled this:
-thinking about getting my shit together.
-how living in an apartment for too long is a bad thing.
-playing with the dog a lot.
-a lot, and i mean a lot of homeade iced tea.
-getting along with my sister.
-having writer's block with music.
-hating all music i make.
-swimming a lot.
-again, hating the music i create.
-then realizing that it's just music and not such a big deal.

i'm not sure why, but i'll sit down, spew out a quick melody and love it.
then i'll put it aside, and come back to it later and just loate it.
it's a curious little thing, really.

i do believe that in a year:
-i won't be in fredonia.
-i will be in the 'working force'.
-i will hopefully be doing my best to help children grow up right.
-i will be more or less confused, i can't decide.
-i will have a better car.
-i will still be playing music with those three other boys.

sometimes, given certain circumstances, it feels
really, really awesome to just feel attractive.
so go feel attractive tomorrow.
it's fun sometimes.

i'm going back to listen to that music that i made
that i don't like. gotta fix it!

xoxo